Today’s first session in a long while found me holding it together by the skin of my teeth, because I had forgotten to grab tissues. The conversation I needed to have felt next to impossible given the circumstances. R more than understood about the email newsletter and the impact that had. I found it really hard to access my words and my thoughts around it all.

If I have learned anything from this experience, it is that some of the things I most need to say need to be said in the physical presence of someone who cares. I am really angry about having to deal with this essentially on my own for an undetermined period of time.

The fact that I have written the letter means nothing if I cannot share it in the way that I need to. Being patient is very difficult when I am in pain.