I’m doing decently today. My anxiety was ok early this morning even though I had a Mountain Dew. I went to get some work clothes. Some sweaters and non flannel buttoned shirts. Man did those mirrors make me look fat. It was kinda discouraging because I felt like I looked pretty good after my weight loss. My mom told me the mirrors were just distorted. Then at H&M I tried on a hoodie and then a sweater and my mom was fussing over me and trying to get it to fit right. Right in front of 2 dudes one who had his phone out. It made me a bit paranoid and it was annoying that my mom was being so fussy with making sure my shirt fit right. I’m 28 not a teenager. The fitting rooms were closed. I left kinda annoyed at both her and that guy. I don’t know. Maybe he was loss prevention. They wear regular clothes so you can’t tell they are security. He was just standing around near me and it was making me self conscious. But I found 3 sweaters and 2 buttoned shirts from Platos Closet for $46 and then a sweater from H&M.

Just the guy with his phone at H&M was making me self conscious. But they actually talked to me for once at Platos Closet. Usually they are just arrogant and ignore you if you are not “their” type of clientele. The lady asked if I was finding everything and said she liked my hat.

So it wasn’t totally bad today. I also went to the gas station to get a few more bottles of that new Mountain Dew and I got a bottle of Body Armor since it was past my morning snack. Then when I got home I took a Valium and ate a rice cake. I think the Valium is truly causing me to lose my appetite.

I also ordered a vest this morning from Amazon for $14 marked down from $40. I didn’t know what size to get so I got 2 different sizes and I’ll just return the one that doesn’t fit.

I’m at home now just waiting around for more work stuff.