My apartment complex is having a BBQ grab-and-go thing today. So you can just go down and get a takeout container filled with BBQ food they made to take home. so I’m gonna go down and get some in a few minutes.

My doctor still never called me back. I’m sleeping 2-4 hours a night. I’m getting really sick of it and it’s making my paranoia about my neighbors worse, I’m having panic attacks every night. I hope they call me back soon. Maybe nobody ever told her to call me even though they said they would. Idk. It’s frustrating because I have the med that would help me, I just want to go back to my old higher dose, but I don’t want to do that without her saying I can/giving me permission to do it even though I know she would. All I’d have to do is just take a second chlorpromazine pill like I was on recently. I should probably just do it at this point. It’s been a over a week of this now.

Maybe I need to take the perphenazine again? I asked to go off it and stopped it like a week ago but she did say she’d still prescribe it in case I still need it. Maybe I should just start that again since the problems started after I stopped that?