So Sorry! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i am not sure how much helpful advice i can give but i think it is important to acknowledge that you have value as a person outside of your father and husband role also. You have value as a human being so Please do not let anyone tell you otherwise. i think it may be a good idea to start working on your self-esteem though i realize it can be hard i suppose. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @captaineo, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!