@Miss Laura and all:

So sorry about your mom. It hasn't been that long. Be patient with yourself and give yourself time to grieve.

I'm in the same boat re frustrations with men. I considered lesbianism for a while then bi-sexuality and have now concluded i'm not interested in sex with anyone, of any gender. This is a strange illness, always morphing into something else. Be flexible. It's probably not a good time to start something with a man, but i'm sure on some level you know that.

Just wanted to chime in and let you know i hear you and share some of your same suffering and perhaps provide a little direction.