yeah..
When I was writing it down I realised again that I don't even know how many people it must have been in all of these years... just that is.. a lot..
I don't know what it does to you but it sure makes it hard to trust, ANYONE. I always wonder if I can trust them..
Almost expect them to hurt me.
There's been so many already.. why would I trust this person? Why would this person NOT hurt me.. And I guess I try to protect myself, by not allowing myself to try and trust anyone, or let anyone close to me... So it hurts less when they do hurt me.. As I had expected they would anyway.
Ya know.. oh well.