Unaluna - I think this is the problem, actually. I’m not great at maintaining relationships and for ages have just let it slide. I feel I was a bit better when I was much younger, but eventually I gave up really bothering. I love my mum’s best friend, but now when we’re together I feel I’m so distracted by other things I’m doing (not even really that interesting) I kinda forget she’s there I feel like being social with people I’ve known most of my life shouldn’t be like that.
Woven Galaxy - thank you, you’re always really kind. I might have to look into that book.
I’ll come clean, though - I’m hoping I can possibly meet my biological sisters and the feelings/lack of I’m having around that prospect are freaking me out (and the whole knowing relationships are hard for me thing). I met my brother when I was a teenager, tried hard to make that relationship work over the next few weeks, but in the end he pushed me away (he came to find me, I never knew he existed).
I’m not sure if I’m starting to feel less excited about the prospect of meeting them because I know more about them than I did before, but I’m hoping it’s not that.