@Sapien:

Very worried about your plan to stop eating to punish yourself. I so don't want that for you! Of course you deserve to eat and be comfortable and healthy and experience the pleasure of food. Please seek help from your PHP program if this message does not convince you. Stopping eating will only make things worse. I want you healthy!

Glad you encountered some good counsellors during your IP stay. Decent helping professionals can surely make all the difference. Take heed of what @Soupe du jour said, i don't have her experience with psychosis and her advice makes good sense.

Be well! Accept help!