It has really really helped me reading this thread and your different experiences. Sometimes I feel alone with this kind of pain, because the people I am around day to day don’t have the same kind of situation and although I’m glad for them and it’s nobody’s fault, it can make me feel alone. I’m sorry for all of you, also it’s so encouraging to read about you getting beyond it. I totally agree with what you said Waterbear and Scarlet that we can build around the hole, and even though it never goes away we can be in a stronger place and kind of move on beyond it. That’s my experience too. I find your stories inspiring and courageous. Thank you for sharing!