So Sorry for what you're going through also! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i agree with the wise and wonderful Yaowen about Hoping that things will improve really soon also. i Hope you're considering contacting your Pdoc in you feel like it is getting too much to handle yourself and also looking for a therapist if you don't have one already. i remember things being pretty hard for you during this period so perhaps that may add to the anxiety? i am not sure really. Regardless i Hope you will have a speedy recovery. Please Do update us if possible if necessary. Do your best to take care of yourself and others. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @jrae, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!