So I had two prescription owing from like 2 weeks ago when I needed to buy medication, I ran out of meds again completely forgetting to get the prescriptions. Just very concerned about my memory because this is nearly a monthly thing. So yesterday I couldn't take my meds coz they ran out. It didn't take me that long for me to get anxious when my dad was putting the 2year granddaughter in the seat I thought he was being too rough with her. So without thinking I shielded her with my body and held her coz I thought he was gonna hit her. It was just that fight or flight reaction, I guess just witnessing that triggered the abuse me and Daniela went as children. I told Daniela what I saw and what I thought was gonna happen she told her bf. Well anyway he confronted my dad, dad got angry with me. So me and Daniela walked away I guess. When I went back I got told off for not being responsible with my medications and forgetting. Damien also told me off as he says "my baggage is starting to spill onto people" and I need to deal with my stuff because everyone has problems. So I guess I got a bit triggered and interrupted it wrong. It really triggered lots of dark memories and was very upsetting for me. In the car I just felt like crying. I honestly underestimate how much these antidepressants do help because I'm frustrated that it hasn't fixed my depression entirely but it does help with my anxiety and PTSD. Now I realise that after missing the dose yesterday and being triggered today. I got my meds refilled and now put in my calendar whenever I need to pick it up. Every month dad thought I was trying to exact revenge because of my past but I truly feared for Alana. It's just frustrating and very scary how bad my memory is, I need to keep mentioning it to my doctor's because this is a big issue and is affecting everyone around me.