I don't know really how to get over this. I was just in the hospital for a month and one of the counselors was super nice to me, bought me packaged food when I was paranoid of what the hospital was giving me, and overall was just awesome. She said she'd do a "toe tap" before I got discharged, but she didn't (I was napping) and I cried because I didn't get to say goodbye. She was like the mom I always wanted but didn't get when I was younger. I really think I love this counselor like most people would love their mom (my mom's alright now but she was sick when I was little and couldn't take care of my properly) I miss her terribly, especially since I'm having trouble adapting to regular life and trying to process my latest psychosis. She said she goes to a park and I want to go there every day just to find her and finally get my toe tap and see her again but I don't want to be stalkerish. I don't want to be hospitalized again so I really shouldn't see her but how do I stop missing her?