So Sorry for what you're going through also! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i agree with th eother wise and wonderful posters about seeing a therapist if you afford it obviously. It is good that you're trying to remember to take your meds also. So Sorry you've had to go through that but at least no one got seriously hurt at least that's what i've gathered. Please do update us if possible if you want to obviously. i Apologize if this post wasn't really helpful also. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Love. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @black-roses, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!