Down a dark hole. Cancelled my luncheon at the senior's center. I've waited for this moment, to be eligible to attend, for years and what do i do but flake. But i just can't drag myself there. It'll be better to go in September anyways when the place is finally fully re-opened and attend an activity rather than going for a casual luncheon, where cliques rule the cafeteria and i won't be sure where to sit or if anyone will speak to me.