I'm getting some help with losing weight! The hospital snail-mailed me asking if i was still interested in their program since they haven't heard from me. I was waiting on them! Turns out they snail-mailed me in April, just a month after my doctor made the referral and that piece of mail went missing!

It's the second time an uber-important piece of snail-mail has gone missing. Some of you might remember how last year i was so soaked in anxiety re my income as i got a threatening letter from my insurance company as i hadn't responded to their snail-mail status report request, which i never got.

I'll have to get after the post office tomorrow. Yay: an opportunity to complain and vent! Can't pass that up! Sure wish everyone would just email me.

Anyways, the hospital emailed me a preliminary document already to get online with their system (the program is still online due to COVID which still rages here in Ontario). I filled that out and next they will send me a video with details of their program which i am looking forward to as i only have a bare-bones idea of what it is at the moment.

I know it's a two-year team approach treating in groups starting with six to twelve weeks of keto, Optifast shakes only. This is very intimidating to me as i use food to get high. I'll have to see how much support they can give me. There's a question of whether i can drink Coke Zero on the diet, my best friend and one true lover. I kinda doubt it.

There's a "behaviorist" on the treatment team, a type of professional i haven't encountered before. This is the person who will help me replace my food addiction with adaptive behaviors and my Coke Zero love affair with a water love affair.

I might have mentioned before that there is a second source of support, a peer-run support org for those with eating disorders with art and dance therapy and groups. So that's another support.

Finally, my referral for individual therapy continues to play out. That's just a waiting game so i am glad to be having some progress with the hospital program.

All this needless suffering these many months all because of a piece of snail-mail going missing! What jokers at the post office!

I look forward to getting some help with weight loss and the negative emotions that cause my binge eating. I will abandon my effort to diet on my own now as it's just making things worse and eat as naturally as i want, not indulge, not restrict, just be myself with food for the moment. I *will* be getting some help!

I feel hope!