I don’t feel good but I’m not sure why. Although I’m guessing my Valium has something to do with it. I didn’t realize how big of a problem it was until I went on my interview. Then it just kind of clicked. The not being able to get out of bed most days. The loss of appetite. The weight loss. It all started around the time I went on the valium. Well most of that stuff. I doubt a medical doctor could help me right now. I’d probably just be sent to the ED or substance abuse part of a psych ward. My stomach hurts but it’s probably just anxiety. My therapist suggested today I get silicone straws and one of those sports water bottles that has the little top that closes and open. My other stuff I use is starting to hurt my teeth. If I bite down on the straws they work about the same. If I open the water bottle just a little bit that also works the same way. Honestly my therapists have had some good suggestions on how to help my issues. She also suggested chewlery. I found one on Amazon that looks like an Oreo. Although it just says “biscuit” on the front instead of Oreo. She told me to not use both weighted blankets. Only the 12 pound one. I don’t know why I’m talking about her so much today when she refused to tell me if she was vaccinated. I don’t know why I even want to work with her still.