I graduated college about a year or so ago. Afterwards, in my area, I couldn't really find a job in my field--nor did I feel all that confident about my skills. I'm working a job with benefits, but the pay is low. I hurt my knee recently and am supposed to have surgery tomorrow morning. Last Wednesday, the skin on my lower thigh felt like someone was taking sandpaper to it and then a few boil like red spots showed up the next day. I'm scared it's staph and that they won't let me have the surgery tomorrow. I can't afford to pay if they charge for a canceled surgery. A person drowns in constant copays, fees, and the deductible. I know. Plus, the other day, my entire department was warned because of a regular problem that we could be let go.

It's been constant stress. My Mom was guilting me the other day for not coming home to take care of her, my brother and grandpa. I felt so guilty that I can't even take care of myself, let alone them. I've been fighting all my life to have a chance and get it together. There are times when I just breakdown, alone, wishing I had a mom I could be held by. I was wishing that I could get some form of comfort. I started looking on the net for support yesterday and found this site.

What little I can offer you is this: I know it's hard and it just keeps coming, but someone cares. Don't give up to the depression or the disease. I'm sure everyone on this site or in the forum would agree, we're here for you.