I didn't relapse yesterday but I did take two sleeping pills instead of one. I did sleep really, really good. I needed that I think.


Today I still feel really messed up. So much crap going on in the world and I can hardly bear it. Trying to do what I can in my own corner of the world, food distribution this weekend, donations to charity, etc. Still think I'm going to relapse. Stupid demon in my head, needs to get out.