I am losing it. I’m totally overwhelmed by wedding things. And apparently my job was supposed to send me a contract but they haven’t yet and now I’m concerned. My clinician from the program just sent my discharge letter to HR today. Im going to email the HR person tomorrow to make sure she got it. Im supposed to sign and return the contract by sept 1! If I don’t get it until next week im in trouble. Im letting my worries spin out of control, im worried that I’ll get in trouble because the disability company only approved till the end of June, because they never told me when/how to submit an extension and now I’ll have to appeal if I need to.

I went to my grandmas to try on the wedding dress and see what alterations needed to be made. The good news is they are very small and simple to do so my grandmother will be able to do them herself. The bad thing is she brought up soooo much stuff that I didn’t even think about and im completely panicking.

I’m still having trouble being out in public, I didn’t want to cook tonight but I couldn’t face going to a restaurant so we ordered pizza. I didn’t want pizza but then again I didn’t really want anything.

Uuugh I need to put a stop sign up and just breathe.