That could be the story of my life. I find it difficult to trust my own perceptions of how other people are doing and have spent years and years beating myself over my failures. Of course a lot of people will remind you that it is not always the case that othetvpeople's progress is not what it seems. Certainly a lot of people aren't doing as well as I perceive them to be. However, that doesn't mean the perception isn't real.

Also, there are some people who are doing better, and do so in ways which seem effortless and really hard to understand. I try to, remind myself that this is life, some people get breaks, some people have different skills and abilities and most importantly of all, some people don't have to deal with the same s#!t of doubt, self hatred and low mood as others. Maybe your two steps forward are a much greater achievement than theirs because of what you have to overcome to.make them. Also who gets to dictate success? Maybe other people's success isn't as meaningful as they think it is if you can find a way to judge success in your terms?