I saw my psychiatrist today. We were clearly on the same page about the change I needed in my medications. Some here may recall that I figured that a small increase of Lamictal was best. I didn't even have to suggest that. He did. I feel quite fortunate that he seems to understand my situation and needs, despite the short time I've been in Czech Republic. He gave me an appointment just two weeks from now, for follow up. Again, I seem quite lucky finding him.

I know that therapy is again necessary. Luckily I finally meet a new one on September 6. I'm hoping he'll be a good fit for me. I've historically struggled more finding therapists than psychiatrists, for some reason. I've had male therapists before, but my last several ones were females.

@BethRags, you know there is a huge difference, in my view, between you and other mothers (or fathers) whose children become estranged. The difference is that you clearly love and yearn for a loving relationship with yours. Far too often parents don't have that deep honest love. I don't think my maternal grandmother loved my mother as genuinely as you seem to love your daughter. I do hope that someday she will get passed whatever her issue is. I totally agree with whatever2013 that the issue IS hers more than yours. It is sad that it might take time for her to realize it.

Sending hugs to all. I realize many here are struggling with various challenges, right now. If there is anything that can be done to alleviate your stress, in a healthy way, please do it. We must sometimes say "No" to certain things. It's OK to do so. Necessary to do so, sometimes. It's not the end of the world to do so.