Does the future seem unreal to anyone else? For me, the concept of the future gets less real the further away it is. Like this weekend is pretty real - I expect it to happen, and I get groceries so I will have food in the house because if this weekend happens, I'll want to eat. Next month is significantly less real, and a year from now is about as real to me as astral travel. Sure, it might exist, but *shrug* it seems very far from anything having to do with me.
I've never planned ahead, or thought about what might happen as a result of my choices, except for my kids. I just have a hard time understanding when one of my kids says, 'I want to do XYZ when I grow up' - I tell them they can do anything they set their mind to, and cheer them on, but recall that I never thought that, or anything like that. I just hoped I'd live to grow up, but felt like it was pretty much 50-50 chance either way. Once I was an adult, I just kind of floated from impulse to impulse. I take jobs when people offer them to me. I accept dates when they're offered. I've actually gotten married because, hey, it seemed like a good idea at the time. The only real thought I've put into anything has been into trying to be a good parent.
I am just now seeing that this lack of connection with the future impacts my health and ability to save money, and all kinds of stuff. Down to getting routine maintenance on my car. Why bother, when there's no future? I feel like logically that's incorrect, and basically force myself to get the oil changed, etc, but I feel like I'm wasting time and money doing these things when there's just no future in which to benefit from the time/money/effort involved in saving money, dieting, exercise, oil changes, home repair, etc.