I told my mom in the car today that everything that happened to me in the last 2 years (I was talking about good things) happened as a result of my transference T. So I don’t know. Besides that conversation I just had a brief thought of her and I had this like weird feeling that felt like it got caught in my throat.

But mainly today I’m worried about going back to virtual with my current therapist and having this history repeat itself of having to say goodbye to another therapist through telehealth.

There’s talk going on about that stuff happening. But if she’s against the vaccine then maybe she’ll just choose to stay open. Honestly I only saw 2 other therapists in that office one time. And I’ve been the only client in the waiting room the last 2 times. So I’m wondering if everyone but her has already gone back to virtual.

I’m also wondering though if I’m putting myself and my family at risk continuing to see her in person. It’s just a weird time in the world.