I'm not going off meds or the shot, being on two aps have really helped me. Things always go haywire when I'm away. This isn't to bad as far as haywire goes. I think we all remember how bad my out west trip went. This is easy the anxiety is getting to me. But my loud head is not. My anxiety med is hydroxiden or however you spell it. So pdoc is calling tomorrow at 4. I'm relieved they hospitalize me just to change my meds.