I wish I could be productive. All I did today was just hang out and wallow. I’ve had my sensory headphones on most of the day and I’ve been drinking from my Gatorade water bottle all day that I got from Target. They have been helping. My room is spotless and I can’t think of anything that needs to be cleaned. I am avoiding big time on reading my library books. I got a sandwich from Jimmy Johns. An actual bread one and not an unwhich. I ate it too fast though. I took my Valium’s and I’ve been ignoring the news since this morning. Everyone tells me not to watch the news. I usually get the first 3 stories of the day from The Today Show then I turn it off.

They said on the news that they don’t know the nationality’s of the people who died. I mean I get the point of the remark but at the same time I’m like, people just died today

My mood is low today. Last night I snapped out of it though and I finished the noodles and watched most of AGT. Today I’m zapped of energy and I’m kinda down in the dumps again.

I can’t wait until my regular depression mixes in with my SAD and post op depression. I’m glad I made the right choice about work though. Today probably would have been my first shift.