I'm proud of my self control.
I don't get a lot of credit for the intelligent things I say, or the selfless things I do. And the temptation is to blow up and start hollering and letting people know how rotten it feels to be taken for granted. But I don't do that. I try and remember to stay calm & collected, and try to see things through their eyes---they're distracted, anxious about other things, or they are simply not on the same page as me right now. They don't MEAN to be neglectful---they're just somewhere else, in their heads.
My self control extends to the food cravings department, as well. With my multiple ailments, I need to watch what I eat very closely, and not give in to impulsive behaviours. I am proud of what I've been able to re-train myself to eat, and to stick with it.
And lastly, I have good self-control when it comes to my goal-setting and work habits. I really try and finish the lists of manageable goals I set for myself now, every day.
I keep distractions to a minimum, and stick to the plan AsMuchAsPossible, as often as humanly possible. This is my biggest accomplishment thus far in my living with Major Depression and GAD (along with everything else), I feel.
Perhaps no one else will ever grasp what we battle everyday. But I certainly do. And that's enough for me right now.
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