I contacted someone yesterday, a therapist, but I didn't contact her for therapy. I contacted her because she is also a writer, and I am looking for someone to be able to help me to finish off my book, when the time comes. I am only at 20,000 words, so I do still have a long way to go, but I just didn't really like the idea of writing it and then doing nothing with it. A huge part of me does want to get to the stage one day where I am free to share my story with the world, but the main reason I am writing it is because there is next to nothing around about the type of therapy that we did. I have spent a long time searching for books/articles/accounts about it but if they are there, they are very thin on the ground and the brave part of me does want to put this out there so that maybe, possibly, it will help therapists to see it from a clients perspective and maybe, possibly, it will help someone one day to make sense of the journey they are on. To know that they aren't alone.

I don't know. Maybe it is a stupid idea, but I am honouring the part of me that wants to do this and in a way I am finding the process helpful, though I am not sure that I should be writing the chapter that I am writing at the moment, without a trauma therapist in my life. It is the chapter that recounts what happened to me, and I am wondering if I should maybe just skip over this bit for now, until I have the right support in place.

I wonder if this lady will say that she will help me. I think that would be pretty cool!