Dear Old T,

Now I am curious. I probably wont hear from you for another month, I am guessing. I am giving myself that as a timeline I think, and anything before then will be a pleasant surprise. I think I will keep seeing this new lady because a month is a long time to go without any momentum, and because I have found talking to her about everything with T quite helpful. She seemed accepting of the relationship that we had and even said that she felt she had been in a couple similar in her time, so can understand I think.

But I am very keen to meet with the lady that you said you have been in discussions with and I am curious to know what you have talked about. I trust you but I am still curious as to what has been said and I am interested to know what she is like. I hope it doesn't go like that one that you thought would be a good fit for me last time!!! That was a bit of a disaster wasn't it, and I am still glad that you never left when she asked you to - I am not sure I would have come out alive if you hadn't been there!

I am feeling optimistic, but also aware that it could be a dead end. I think that's one of the reasons I will keep seeing this lady for the time being. Whether or not I will still see the other one in the middle of the month or not is unknown yet - I guess I just see how it goes and see how I feel at the time.

Secretly hoping I will hear from you in the next two weeks, but definitely not expecting it.

Me.