Hey L. I tried last night to write that "therapy letter" that you suggested but I couldn't even get it started!! Even knowing I won't send it (I don't have a clue of her address so I couldn't even if I wanted to) I still am like damn. I don't know what to say. This apology is 36 years too late, I guess that's why. "I'm sorry I hurt you" is so pathetically inadequate. I was going to do the Active first, but I hadn't been able to do that either, so tried the letter, but I can't do either. I will try again this evening. Maybe have a glass of wine first see if that helps. I'm really glad that my recent dream uncovered this, I'm sure the shame I feel over how I treated her way back then has been contributing to at least one of my gazillion complexes. I'm determined to get this done before I see you on Friday.