Dear bpforever1,

I can totally identify with you and what you wrote.

I am weary of the pandemic and worried too. I only go out to buy groceries.

Before this pandemic started, I bought a lot of 3M N95 masks for flu season. Now when I go get groceries I wear one of these. I also bought some airtight swimming goggles since the SARS-CoVID can attach to the mucous membranes of the eyes. I've learned from a nurse how to remove these and my clothing carefully after a trip to the grocery store. And I wear Latex gloves too.

People in the stores look at me and laugh or roll their eyes, but I don't care. I am not in the best of health and even though I am completely vaccinated, I once almost died of the flu so I figure I owe it to myself to be super careful.

Being alone constantly was awful at the beginning of the pandemic but now I am pretty used to it although sometimes it become wearying and draining. Like you, I am trying to be safe.

During the early pandemic I used a food delivery service and may go back to that as things get worse.

Since my depressive mindset seems hardwired to a "could or should be better but isn't" I try to lean towards a "could be worse but isn't worse" state of mind when I can to try and keep my sanity. Not always easy since depression affects one's state of mind in a profound way.

You seem wise to me in your attitude and in the precautions you take. I can only commend you for that.

I wonder how long this awful pandemic will go given the mutations and all. They were talking about offering booster shots against COVID six months after one received the second shot. Now they are saying that perhaps we will have to weight 8 months. - sigh-

I wish you only the best of luck in your life. Hope we both survive this awful situation.

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen