I read all day to cope. I had my noise cancelling head phones on a lot of the day. Although I might have read a bit too much since I forgot to eat a lot today and just grabbed a couple rice cakes here and there. And then this afternoon I felt like I needed protein fast so I ate a little cup of peanut butter. I had a few small pieces of sirloin steak for dinner. But I just feel sick and in pain. Not sure why. Its been going on for a few days. There’s only one thing that can calm it and I feel disgusted with myself right now for doing it. So it’s been a couple days. There’s no way I can tell a medical doctor about it. I told my therapist through email. But I told her it’s something I do more for my physical health then for psychological reasons. It’s like I feel like I have all the symptoms of PMS. But no period. I thought it could also be constipation. I have a really bad pain in my lower right side. So I took 3 colace this afternoon. They helped a bit. And I took Tylenol both at 9AM and at 3PM. I have the heating pad on now. Bur overall I seem to have transitioned well from all my daytime reading distraction to calming down for the night. Even though I’m not feeling well.