Hey all, it's been a long time since I have even thought about my illness. I had not had any mood swings or anxiety in over 2 years until last week. It had gotten so good that I had stopped taking anything other that this silly Charlottes Web CBD tincture.
I relapsed during my last manic episode, and have been taking methadone to help me not use opiates. I honestly thought the CBD was helping me, not that the 140 mg of Methadone was keeping me so stoned that I was just flat. So a few weeks ago I decided to taper off of my methadone and do sobriety without my training wheels. One thing I didn't consider, was that ALL of my mental health issues would come roaring back with a vengeance.
So now here I am, 8.5 weeks of 100% sobriety and I am starting to loose my ****. Every time I drive I am seeing somebody in my rearview mirror, there are pigeons in my hallway. My psychiatrist moved away during covid, I changed primary doc and cant see my therapist for another 2 days.

I really don't want to go back into the hospital to sort this out, but I am afraid that this will just get worse before I can get my meds sorted out. I really did not think that being on my methadone was having such an impact on my mental health.