I'm struggling intensely with sui thoughts/planning. I started packing in case PHP sends me IP tomorrow. It's just we have to rate our coping on a scale of 1-5 1 being handling life stressors fine and 5 being can't cope/need hospital I never know the difference between 4 (seriously overwhelmed, severe state) and 5 (you are going inpatient). I don't want to ever circle a five but I'm scared of myself and I don't think IP would help.