Don't be scared of going back into the hospital. Maybe its for the best. The same or similar situation has happened to me minus the methadone. I have a high stress kind of high powered job and I was afraid I would lose my job if I went into the hospital. But my therapist said look. You will lose your job if you DONT go. She makes sense. The hospital can start tge ball rolling on medications faster and get you hooked up with a new psychiatrist faster than you, yourself can. Best of luck.