So Sorry things are difficult! Please Do not give up! Hugs. Perhaps there's some other meds that may help you with handling ocd without gaining more weight also? i am not sure but i think it may be worth it to talk about it with your pdoc. i Hope you'll be able to afford a therapist also. Do what is possible to be healthy both physically and mentally. M. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Love. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @black-roses, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!