I was pretty S last night. It had to do with hunger again. I took an extra 40mil Geodon at at 7. after my 160mil at 4:30. and my 20mil at 3:30. I woke up at 9 to get some chicken Parmesan and I was so light headed and my heart was pounding and I felt like I was going to pass out. The spaghetti was sticky and I was having trouble getting it and I was about to pass out face first into the pot so I went into the family room and I sat down. My mom asked what was wrong and I just told her I was dizzy. She said probably because I needed to eat. Then I got up a minute later and I managed to get the spaghetti and then I went to bed to eat and then I fell asleep until 4:45.

I haven’t had that kind of reaction before from taking extra meds. Usually I don’t have any reactions.

Today I feel slightly annoyed at my weight. Actually pretty annoyed. But overall I guess I’m ok. I tend to be very crabby and angry in the mornings when I’m by myself when it’s still dark and everyone is sleeping. But once the blinds are open and the sun comes in I feel better.

But I need to take a Valium at 8:30 every morning even if I’m not anxious or my anxiety will just get out of control later in the day. I need to stay ahead of my anxiety, and I need to be on a very strict schedule with the valium.