I have a pdoc appointment at 12 today. I'll take it from work and just shut my door. It was at 4 PM and then I thought I was going to get into the first IOP so I changed it and then I didn't get into the first IOP and it could have stayed at 4!!! Ugh. Oh well. Maybe this will give me a chance to shower after work and before meeting my friend for dinner and before going to Church tonight. I need to talk to pdoc about the frequency of the suicidal thoughts and the drop in mood in general. Maybe some of my meds need tweaking. I also have to tell him about the relapse in July. Sigh. I love my pdoc but I'm not looking forward to this particular appointment. I guess I need to tell him that I am applying to IOP's too. Too much to say! Not enough time!