I have therapy at a weird time today since I used to see her every other week and now it’s every week. So when we set up the appointments last week this was the time she had today. But I’m kind of nervous because I’ve taken my 3 Valium and I should be taking my lamictal and propalanol in a bit too just so I can stay on schedule with my meds. But I already feel like I’m out of commission for the day as a result of the Valium. I took 2 at 8:30 thinking they’d last and wear off a bit at the same time. Then a short story in my Stephen King book freaked me out enough to grab my 3rd one. They can tell when you come to a session on any substance. So I’m hoping to be able to snap out of this if I just force myself to focus. I’ve had 3 bottles of soda today hoping it would help with my tiredness. And it didn’t. I mean I slept good last night. And I won’t even tell her about the Valium but she will know just based on how spacey I seem. I don’t know. Im worried anyways because I’ll be wearing a mask but I’m hoping she just won’t say anything about it. But I’m anxious about my appointment.