Therapy wasn’t the best today. Masks are now required and I could hear her grumbling to another therapist about how much she hated them. But We talked about a lot of stuff. But then I mentioned my new KN95 masks and she said they look like beaks but that masks don’t do much anyways. And her comment annoyed me and I said “but it’s not just the masks. It’s the masks and the vaccines and the social distancing” and she said “yeah ok.” and just totally dismissed what I had said. Honestly I’m thinking of not going back to her and just being on my own until I see the new one who should be contacting me after Labor Day. I guess what I’m the most pissed about is she had me leave her office 15 minutes early. I didn’t have my phone or a watch so I didn’t check the time. But when I got to the car my mom said I had left early. So I mean I don’t understand what I’m doing wrong that causes me to continue to get hurt by unprofessional therapists. I voiced my concern before I moved about the mental health support down here and the therapist I was seeing said it would be really good. But that’s not happening. I’m putting my therapy charges on my credit cards because I basically can’t afford therapy. And I thought going to every week would be helpful. I just don’t understand this.

This just makes me want to hide forever in my room with my books.

Edit: I’m feeling better now. I had to take all my night meds at one time. So 180mil of Geodon and 2 10mil melatonin. I don’t feel sick the way I did the other night. I don’t even feel tired.

I heard today that green tea can mess with your meds. I usually drink exotic flavors of Lipton black tea I buy on Ebay from a dude in Russia. No joke. He sells them practically for market price and gives discounts and free shipping. It takes a couple months to get to my house but its worth it.

yesterday I chugged a 20oz bottle of diet lipton iced tea and I didn’t have any problems. But stress relief tea with kava in it drives me up the wall and I had to get rid of it.