So Sorry! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i agree with the wise and wonderful downandlonely about contacting your psichiatrist as soon as you can if you will possibly. Gopefully they will be able to help you. Please don't do anything dangerous to yourself or others. Be Safe. Do update us if possible if you want to obviously. Remember that you matter. Love. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @black-roses, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!