I’m pretty crabby today. I’m not really sure why. My weight dropped some more. Usually that’s enough to put me in a good mood all day. But I haven’t even been feeling anxious. Just moody. I slept good last night too. I slept all night with that oral sensory thing my therapist told me we need to work on. I’m not sure why I need to work on it. I need to ask her what her problem is with it. I mean if it helps with my anxiety and helps me sleep and it’s not hurting anyone, then I don’t see a problem? My old therapist not the last one, but the one before, was super accepting of it and was so excited when I found a new coping skill that wasn’t meds. She said I should use it whenever I get anxious. Not just at night. Like why do I need to work on it?

But anyways I’m starting to feel a bit better. I was out with my mom this morning and I was hungry for real food so I got a small plain cheese cauliflower crust pizza. Tomorrow I plan on doing a lot of grocery shopping. I’m out of a lot of stuff I get from the Asian market and I’m out of turkey burgers and zero sugar soda. I for sure don’t need rice cakes or cereal.

But I mean, maybe it’s understandable that I’m moody with everything I have going on and all the unknowns surrounding it plus dealing with a kinda useless therapist who really doesn’t know how to work with me on this stuff.