It's weird that it's taken me 13 hours to compute the fact that reading my own words back to me is the ultimate way of reflecting something back...and the fact that I crumbled as soon as you did that makes perfect sense.

Now - as for what I need...I can only answer part of that question. The other half, I am sure you know. I am going to need your help to avoid retreating as I often do after a vulnerable conversation.

I loathe being essentially on my own with these big feelings.

"I'm still here..."

You aren't here, though, and that's part of the problem. It's easier for me to let certain things hit the air if we're in the same place.