My anxiety was tough after 9. I think I know what caused it. I took a 4th Valium half an hour ago which I haven’t done in awhile. And I didn’t read today since my book is pretty scary. I’ve been losing weight but I don’t feel like I look any better then I did before the 24 pound weight loss. This may be me just going crazy but I feel like I look wider. And maybe it’s just my weight shifting like it’s supposed to. But I feel bigger even as I lose more weight and start getting into smaller sizes.

I don’t know. Right now I just feel like I’m gonna majorly freak out because of my anxiety.

I wish I had some lighter reading material but all my lighter stuff I need for after my surgery.