So Sorry things are being so hard also! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i agree with the wise and wonderful Thunder about focusing on yourself for a bit perhaps. Feelings may not go away for a bit but at the very least do something nice. M. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Be kind. Love. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Gennie1981, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!