@BethRags and all:

I don't see a psychiatrist. I just see a medical doctor. Here in Canada it's common after you've been in the psychiatric system for a while to be referred back into the care of your medical doctor. I prefer this. Medical doctors are more collaborative. He was supportive of my request to use The Ashton Method. Medical doctors are pretty co-operative up here.

I won't go into why i think the world is ending soon. I don't want to scare anyone or fear-monger. I'm scared and sad about it but i'm 55 and i don't have a pension and don't want to live past 65 as i will be impoverished then.

I just want to outlive my dog and she's nine. We'll either die together when the world ends or i will die AFTER she does. She's hopelessly attached to me. I didn't socialize her when she was a puppy and she doesn't care for other people, just adores me. She'd suffer if i left her alone and i couldn't bear that.

Silly to live for a dog, but there it is.