I want to call you but I'm not going to. It would probably just make things worse if I did because if you are sick of me, then you would get even more sick of me. I'm just going to try to journal my way through this, and of course talk to you in my head and write here. Maybe after 2 months has gone by I won't even want to call you again. One can hope, right?

But what in the hell happened Friday? You know how cars go from 0-60 in x number of seconds? It's like we went from 60-0 between last week and Friday. Last week was an awesome session and I could have kept talking for hours. Then Friday boom you're all "It feels right to me to take a break for a month or two." Yes, yes I know what I said. But my idea of a break didn't go as far as 2 months. Why does yours? And why'd you say "We don't need to talk about that anymore" when I was talking about h? I thought it was up to me what we talk about? I'm so confused.