I feel like I need to email you, but none of the words seem right. I have way too much to say, but none of it seems right.

I want/need to say some things to you that aren't very nice. I need to speak my truth but your responses to 'angry emails' have always been short and terse (that's how they sound to me at least) so I really don't think that emailing you these things is a good idea.

I need to see you in person, but that's the problem isn't it. I can't. I just have to sit here and wait, unless I choose to walk away. I'm not even sure that's possible, but even if it is, that isn't what I think is right here. For the work that we did was relational. It needs to be ended properly.

How in God's name can you not see that?!?!

How long are you going to leave me here.......