I'm so traumatized by my experiences that I cannot even seek medical treatment for medical conditions unless I can see my family doctor. For example, I had a urinary infection that made me quite ill last March. My urine looked and smelled bad. I also had a fever and body aches. It wasn't enough to motivate me to seek help. I treated the infection by drinking a lot of coffee immediately followed by large amounts of water. It worked.
There is always doubt. Am I sick enough? Will the doctor minimize me and accuse me of malingering? Will my symptoms be interpreted as psychosomatic?