I don’t know why I decided to drink two 20oz Pepsi’s after taking a 4th Valium and my 20mil Geodon right before drinking them. I stood up though after procrastinating for an hour because I had a stomach ache and once I stood up I felt a lot better. I’m really looking forward to my trip. Except the bathroom part. Maybe if I just don’t drink anything from tomorrow night until 3:30PM the next day when we get to our hotel it would be ok. Or else I’ll just have to hurry in the bathroom at the restaurant and hope no one is in there. Or paying attention to me. Not sure going without anything to drink for 20 hours is a wise thing to do. But I have of places I’ll be going. Target bathrooms are always an option too.

I’ve only used the men’s bathroom 3 times. Once at a busy mall and I was so desperate because of my anxiety. Once at a lawyers office where the bathrooms were just single ones. And then at a Walgreens where I hurried in and hurried out and luckily no one was there the whole time I was.

Edit: I took my 160mil Geodon and a zofran. I ate some homemade turkey soup and a few small pieces of sirloin steak. Actually eating something for once that isn’t frozen or comes out of a box or bag was really good for my anxiety.