my strange logic: im restricting until my new running shoes come hopefully by tuesday. needed new ones to avoid injury. i was a little injured last saturday from my shoes so i decided not to exercise for a while. but really it was os that i would stop binging, needing to eat a lot of calories to sustain the exercise. it was exhausting overwhelming and triggering.

i hit a weight too high and i'm snapping back into restriction. i fasted on saturday. i'm trying to eat high protein so my muscles dont deteriorate too much but i have not lifted a single weight in almost two weeks. i'm choosing this over my marathon i guess. i gave myself permission to run a 6+hour marathon. just running to finish it, not focused on results anymore...

certain jobs i've been too weak to do and had to quit. now i cant run my marathon. it is also very expensive to buy restriction foods. not that i was cheap while binging.